white noise

Searching, searching,
Target. Lock.
Explode.

Stop there.
No.

My restless hands
Gasoline pouring,
Match fingering.

Flicker, flicker
Bang!

Shake it away...
Clouds, smoke.

Pulling, ripping,
Tearing, touching,
Tucking, fearing
Feeling, forgetting...

Leaving the land
Desolate, barren-

This isn't what I wanted.

Still moving-
Automatic.

Fire alarm!
White noise...
Music, rhythm,
Maybe.

Keep on going.

Pleasure, pain,
Twirling, plucking,
Aching, breaking,
Discarding, dead.

Stop it! Stop it!
Distract.

Mirror, movement-
Frustrated.

Just a spark,
A strand,
A moment.

Searching, searching,
Target. Lock.
No!

This isn't what I want.

But my restless hands
Think otherwise.
Fire alarm,
White noise.